Will He Remember The Bacon?

"I want bacon," bellowed from his teenage voice as I started cooking for the king. A melancholy feeling washed over my balding, slightly graying head. As the wave passed from head to toe, I wondered if he would remember the bacon. My son, now a young man at the age of 15, requires 24/7 support for health and safety. While he can communicate some of his needs, I still wonder if he knows how much we love him. Heckl, if it is a preferred item, he will communicate his wants every second, but will he remember our time cooking bacon together?
 Joey
Conversations bounced around from Christmas to the presents he wanted from eBay. I was in a state of emotional conflict at the time; I was so proud that we were conversationally talking about Christmas, but that melancholy feeling about whether our time cooking bacon matters still swirled around my mind. We were just a dad and son talking about nature's meat candy for a split second. We talked about the sizzle and smell of the bacon. I described what I was hearing and smelling,, and he humored me by not leaving the room until the food was done. Our guy uses one or two words to communicate his needs, so our conversations look different. This one was important as the remaining hairs on my head continue to grey, and the feeling of what happens when we pass creeps ever closer to the front of our minds. 
 
Will he remember the conversation(s) we have about bacon, Christmas, or where I might occasionally speed like a roller coaster going up hills because he loves it? I look at him and tell him how I love his spirit, laughter, and compassion, which he shows to a world that far too often sets low expectations for such an exceptional person.

I want him to know that his family believes he can grow and that his contribution to our family is unfiltered. He loves us despite our cracks, despite our failings. He takes us as we are meant to be: loving, compassionate, and st ng. He has already contributed so much to our hearts and fa ly. That question stays with me to this day when I look at im. Will he remember the bacon, or if he is thinking, why do you keep talking so much about freaking bacon.